Irony of Laughter and Paradoxical Cry

I used to believe that laughter is the best melody to my ears but then it turned to be an eardrum-breaking noise. It just so happen when i heard the people outside so happy and laughing out loud and i'm alone inside trying to find a reason to at least just smile if not laugh but there just nothing at all...

The greatest amount of tears that i've cried is when there are no tears that would fall when i know that deep inside it's overflowing that it drowns my heart.