Just Some Random Thoughts

It has been a while since the last time that i have written in this blog. Many ideas have passed already. The talkative mind was put into silence. Nothing in particular is this article all about. Missed the idea of being with a piece of choco wacko and a cup of coffee (got no money to buy actually... Lol). Nonetheless, i'm having it now. I used to be a loner but i just realized that i lost my connection to that person. I missed the thinker in me. I missed thinking about what other people are thinking inside the coffeeshop. For the past years i have always been with a company of one or two. People always come to me seeking advice or just be with my company. I enjoyed it though but now i have to get reconnected with that thinker. Ideas. Radical thoughts. Crazy reasoning. Out of this world imaginations. I missed the kid in me. Hmmmm, since no one is reading this blog, i guess i should take this opportunity to ur it all out. I'm tired. Sick and tired of the routines of my life. I feel like a loser. Ironic though that many people wants to be like me when they don't know that in one way pr another i feel so defeated. I have been the source of strength of many people around me yet none has asked me how am i. Faking to be strong when in fact im already on my knees. Heavy-laden. If only i could cry now i would but i just can't (in a public place). I don't wanna look stupid. Deep inside me is crying out. This is insane. Insanely sane! Darn! Well, i believe that in God's time, my true freedom from my self-imposed prison will be over. If that happens, it will be all glory to God. As of now, eventhough this post is just an out of nowhere idea, i am glad that i got the chance to get connected to this alter-ego of mine. Hoping to be able to write every day to just get updated. Pretty much sure of that... Bye for now...

God Favored Me

I have been the worst person that I can be,

Ungrateful, insensitive, satisfied with complacency;

Yet I'm now living a life supernaturally blessed,

Not looking at my iniquities, God love me instead.

Favors came and more are to come,

For being God's child now i have become;

"What did I do?" you might ask me,

All I know is being His child...

"GOD FAVORED ME!"

P.S.: This poem is originally written by me as inspired by the song above. So take time to listen and realize that THERE'S NOTHING THAT YOU DO OR NOT DO WILL CHANGE THE LOVE OF GOD FOR YOU! HALLELUJAH!

The One

I never thought it's gonna be this way
That it will be just like those ordinary days
Spending life all by myself
Hoping that I could spend it with someone else

I thought that love has lost its meaning
For four years of waiting and praying
But God is so great 'coz He love me much
After all the yearning I now have the perfect match

You are the one; the one that I need
And I thank God 'coz He love me indeed
Your smile's the sunshine; the light of my day
Your name is what my heartbeat always say

But it is so sad to know
That how fast you came is how fast you'll go
If I could ask God just one favor
It would be to have you forever

It might be hard but the hope is in me
That if its God's will that you're my destiny
Wherever you'll go, how far be the distance
Always and forever we'll be holding our hands

Mr. Webster Please Delete It

If there's a word in the dictionary that i want to delete, it's the word EXPECTATION. If it's not attained it can cause desperation. It's easy to say that we should not expect but it's human nature to feel such. Nonetheless, it's deletion is not necessary though if people know the word GRATITUDE.

It's the thing that they will remember you even if they don't have the reason to. Not the times when you will hear them because they need you.

Irony of Laughter and Paradoxical Cry

I used to believe that laughter is the best melody to my ears but then it turned to be an eardrum-breaking noise. It just so happen when i heard the people outside so happy and laughing out loud and i'm alone inside trying to find a reason to at least just smile if not laugh but there just nothing at all...

The greatest amount of tears that i've cried is when there are no tears that would fall when i know that deep inside it's overflowing that it drowns my heart.

Independence's Death Sting

INDEPENDENT! I once thought i was as i have always wanted to be. Everybody wants it. Strive hard to get to it. Eventually missing many other more important things than just being INDEPENDENT!

I DON'T NEED INDEPENDENCE ANYMORE!

I'm not created to be alone. I'm created to have fellowship; to be DEPENDENT upon God's grace. And now that i barely have anything, Lord please take away EVERYTHING that I may start from NOTHING but Your GRACE!

Second TIme Around

                We have heard of sayings about second time. These are some:

·         “There’s always a second time”

·         “Love is sweeter the second time around.”

·         “God gives second chances.”

These sayings seem to be so comforting to hear especially when we fail from doing something; that a second chance of winning awaits us. But would it be more fulfilling that on our first encounter with a task it will be of success. I do believe that we are destined to win. Second is mediocrity; lukewarm; lesser priority. If we can be first then why be complacent with being a second?

God gives us assignments and it’s up for us how to respond. There are even times when His commands seem to be illogical or we even have to get out of our comfort zones to perform the task. But the reality is, it’s not about how comfortable we will be. It’s God’s command; no other options but to obey it and we will eventually reap the reward. On the other hand, we also have the choice not to follow but we will also reap our reward. We just have to remember that “What we sow is what we reap.”

          In the Bible, we can find two incidents when God spoke for the second time. He spoke the second time to two of the prominent persons in the Bible but they have different responses as to God’s speaking to them. These two are Jonah and Jeremiah.

In Jonah 3:1, it says, “Now the Word of the Lord came to Jonah the second time.” Jeremiah 33:1a says, “Moreover the Word of the Lord came to Jeremiah a second time…”

The story of the two is not uncommon to all of us but for the sake of our better understanding, let’s have a short recap of the story of these two persons as to how God spoke to them the second time and let’s see their responses and the effects of it.

Jonah didn’t like the assignment God gave him. God directed him to leave his homeland and go to the enemy city of Nineveh, a hostile and evil center of idol worship (Jonah 1:1-2). There Jonah was to warn the people of God’s impending judgment and urge them to repent. The Hebrews hated the people of Nineveh, so the rebellious prophet fled in opposite direction, hoping for a different word from God that was more to his liking (Jonah 1:3). Instead, God was determined to His Word to Jonah would be obeyed (Isaiah 55:11). He spoke to Jonah again. His second message was the same as the first (Jonah 3:1-2). However, during the interval, Jonah had been buffeted by storms (Jonah 1:4-16) and travelled in the stomach of a fish for three days (Jonah 1:17). This time, he was prepared to hear God again and do his bidding (Jonah 2:1-10).

God spoke to the prophet Jeremiah two times (Jeremiah 33:1-3). But Jeremiah accepted God’s Word to him the first time. The second time God spoke to him was to give him a fuller revelation of what He had first told him. In Jeremiah 33:3 it says, “Call to Me, and I will answer you, and show you great and mighty things, which you do not know.” (cf Isaiah 48:6) God promised Jeremiah that if he would call to Him, not only would He answer Him but He would reveal to him “great and mighty things” that could not otherwise be known. The word “mighty” (Hebrew batsar)is better rendered “isolated” or “inaccessible.” The suggestion is that God would give Jeremiah “revelational insight,” revealing things that otherwise would be inaccessible or isolated.

Such “revelational insight” always has been essential for a clear understanding of victorious spiritual warfare. One cannot pray effectively without insight into how to pray, as well as in to what things God truly longs for us to seek after in prayer. That is the reason why we need to ask for God’s wisdom in everything because our wisdom is finite (Proverbs 3:5-6).

To further look into the importance of “revelational insight”, let’s go over 2Kings 6:8-17. To believe the impossible one must first see the invisible – the lesson Elisha taught his servant. The text involves war between Israel and Syria, and the prophet Elisha’s informing his people of the enemy’s tactics through prophetic insight (v.12). Here is the lesson: Prayer is the key to discerning our adversary’s strategems. Further, the key to dispelling Elisha’s servant’s panic was his vision being opened to see the invisible. Note, this crucial words : “Elisha prayed”! Elisha did not ask God simply to show the servant another miracle; he asked for his servant to see into another dimension. The answer came immediately: “The Lord opened the eyes of the young man, and he saw. And behold, the mountain was full of horses and chariots of fire around Elisha.” (v.17). Seeing into  the invisible is the key to victorious praying – discerning spiritual issues from God’s perspective rather than man’s, seeing the adversary’s attack plan, and perceiving God’s angelic strike-force.

This answer to Elisha’s prayer is the same thing as the “great and mighty things” that god promised to Jeremiah when he will call upon Him.

 What God says to us next will depend on how we responded to His previous word to us. If, like Jonah, we disobeyed His earlier instructions, God will give them a second time. If we obeyed his first directive, as Jeremiah did, He will give us a fresh and deeper expression of His will (Matthew 25:23).

If you have not received a fresh word from God, return to the last thing God told you and examine your obedience. Is the Lord still waiting for your obedience? Seek to be like Jeremiah, and properly respond to your Lord’s instructions the first time.